Jobless and in a full on rut.
Lot's of reading and writing things out to get a better hold of myself.
Slowly making progress but no where near where i would like to be. I keep relying on others to help me, but unless i get there on my own it won't stick. Depending on others just gives me a wasted place to put my blame. It really all boils down to just me.
Me Me Me. Why is that so hard?
If I cant get what I want for myself noone else will be able to either.
SIGHHHHH. Things were looking up. I have to stop dwelling on the decline.
I am going to get out of this and be HAPPY with me and all thats around me.