I need to get out of my fucking fantasy world. I am miserable. I need to accept it and change it.
But still, I think I know the answer and it's not the outcome I WANT.
I need to get over this whole WANT concept... it never works to my advantage. It completely hurts me instead. Expectations are my downfall. Wasted words don't help. I can't believe anything anymore. Where is the trust? The teamwork? The effort? The support? The compromise? The love?